Sickening Sin

Our first convo dinner was at Kansas so you know what that means... LOTS OF FOOD! Somehow I managed to eat some of an appetizer and a good amount of my main dish without feeling sick. But then the "Going Bananas" dessert came. For all of my BAers, you know how much I love that dessert. Warm banana bread with chocolate and dulce de leche. Oh my gosh. After sharing one with my friend Pat, I happened to enter myself in a little competition with my friend Brandon over who could finish the most dessert. After eating as much as I could (with about a third of the group watching, I might add) I threw in the towel (er... napkin) and gave up. Even though we had some good laughs, I found myself feeling really sick to my stomach. I know you're thinking, "Obviously!" But walking back to the casa it dawned on me that I had just committed the sin of gluttony. I would have never thought of that but I right before dinner, I had just finished reading a chapter in "The Good and Beautiful God" about sin and why it upsets God. The author says that the reason God hates sin is because "[sin] hurts me, and therefore it hurts God- because God loves me." How amazing is that? So many people think that God hates those who sin but in reality, He loves us SO much that anything that hurts us (sin) He hates! At that moment, I said a prayer asking for forgiveness not only because I had committed a sin that left me feeling physically ill, but also because I knew that it hurt my Father and I never want to do that.

Next convo dinner, and any large meal for that matter, I pray that those words come to mind and I am able to control myself in order to avoid pain; the pain in my stomach and the pain in God's heart.



Besos xoxo